Saturday, April 4, 2009
This blog will no longer be in use from 4th of April '09 due to some... idiots. :D
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Too bored.. :D
I love you dear ^^
Saturday, February 14, 2009
& this is why sometimes it's better that I keep everything to myself than to tell you all what I'm thinking.
I didn't know my feelings can be used as something to threaten me with & to be used against me.
Friday, January 2, 2009
It's a brand new year.
But problems seem to be piling up instead of being solved. A big thanks to everyone who have been supporting me all this while. If it weren't for all of you, I really don't know what I'll do.
Being there for me on special occasions & festive seasons to cheer me up,
- thank you girls so much. Sorry if my emo-ness made the happy occasion seem so gloomy. Special thanks to Ling for hearing me out when I'm down though I know you don't seem too fond about such situations. Thanks dear. Really thankful that you're always there for me all through the past 4 years. Though we don't meet up as often, you're still my crazy bestie. (:
& the 3 darlings who have been giving me countless of advice & support,
. Thank you girls for everything. Worrying for me all the time, & always accompanying me all the time. Thank you so much Tiff. Though I don't say nor show it, really appreciate you very much girl. Whatever I'll do without you eh? :D Bestie, thank you for your understanding & support though I don't think you really agree to such things. But still, I love you girl. ^^
A&D family members. Thank you all for showing me so much support even though you all found out about... It won't be easy to thank all of you one by one. But still, thanks so much you guys. Never thought that A&D would become what it is now. & the family bond I have with all of you, really, no one can ever replace all of you.
, thanks my dearest baka for being there for me every single time. Don't know you've been through how many of my crying fits le lor. Thanks for protecting me all the time. Making sure that I'm fine. Giving me advices & telling me everything's alright. Baka... Thanks!
, thank you for giving me countless of support & always telling me to stay strong. Sorry you have to listen to all my problems time & again. Mei oh. Thank you so much for everything that you have done for me. Really appreciate it. :D
, it's been half a year since we know each other. & all through these months, you've been through so much with me. So much that I don't know how to thank you. Just want to let you know that I really treasure you alot & that I'm thankful for your support. Darling, I'll always support you in whatever you do as well. So lets stay strong together k.
, although the time we know each other isn't very long. You girls have shown me countless of support. Thinking of ways to help me solve my problems & asking me to be strong. Sorry for making you worried for me all the time. & thanks so much for supporting me.. (:
Special thanks to
as well for being there for me. Letting me know that I'm not alone & walking through this road with me. Thank you all so so much!
Deardear. I'll hold on for as long as I can. I'll try to bear with it if that's what you want. But I won't deny that I hope for you to move out now. & I promise to never leave before you do. So yep, deardear.. I love you shagua. No matter how long it takes, I'll wait for you.
Friday, December 26, 2008
It's Christmas. But somehow, I'm feeling nowhere near merry. In fact, I'm feeling miserable. Woke up for some reason & I'm finding it hard to go back to sleep now. Sigh. How I wish I could just lock myself in the room & just lie in bed all day. There's no point celebrating this Christmas anyway.
Was all excited about coming home from HongKong as I could then see dear & spend Christmas with dear. In the end.. Sigh. Don't wanna talk about it anymore. Just feel so stupid & naive to actually believe that dear would be allowed to spend the day with me.
Been thinking alot about the whole thing these 2 days. Feeling so helpless & useless cuz I can't do anything about it at all. It's not that I don't know what I can do or should do but it's just that I wasn't able to do it because of the fact that they're dear's family. God. I feel so bloody useless. Seeing dear going through all these but being unable to do anything about it. Sigh.
Honestly speaking. The thought of giving up have been flashing more frequently in my mind than anything else. Somehow it seems to me that the only reason why he treats you that way was because of me. Maybe if I were to give in, you would gain your freedom back & things might change for the better? I seriously don't know what else I can do to make you feel better. & yes, as you know, I can't take it anymore. It hurts me so much to see you like that. I feel like such a burden to you because you're constantly worrying for me. It's bad enough that you have to deal with your dad. Why do you need to worry for me all the time? I don't wish to see you suffer all these because of me.
I don't wish for you to force yourself to do things you can't do. Something's holding you back, making you bear with his nonsense & both you & I know that. What I don't know is.. what exactly is holding you back?
Maybe I'm asking for too much. Maybe I've crossed the line. He is your dad afterall. I can't possibly ask you to move out & leave your family. I have absolutely no right to do that. So I guess the best option might be for me to back out? Maybe. Just maybe. You'll be free again? Sigh. I would do anything to make sure you're alright & for you to be free again. If venting his frustrations on me would make him happy, let him do it then. It's the only thing I can do for you. Sigh. It hurts so much to see you like that. I really feel so helpless. What am I supposed to do? All I want is to just be with you. Happily. But why is it so hard? Tell me what I can do to make things alright again because I seriously don't know how. Sigh..
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I love you dear.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
God. Kill me please.
I'd rather die than go to HongKong lar! T.T
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Maybe it's all just an illusion.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Love can sometimes be magic.
But magic can sometimes be just an illusion.