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Meant to update but was feeling really unwell the past two days. >:(
But I'm feeling so much better now though. (:
Anyhoos, I finally got my tatt done on Thursday. Mei was supposed to go with me but because of some unforseen circumstances, she was unable to make it. Heh. But nevermind! It was a pretty good experience to do it on my own. But seriously, I was undeniably nervous beforehand. Heh. Surprisingly, it didn't hurt as much as I expected it to, though. Ohwells. Sandy's been a brave girl! -claps- :D

I've been watching quite a number of older Korean dramas of late. Namely My girl, which I'm watching for the third time, and My lovely Samsoon, which I haven't had the chance to watch it properly until now. :)

I don't know why, but watching them brings back memories of A. Happy memories of course. But, I don't really like it cuz it'd just make me emo lahhh.
There are moments when part of me still believe that it's just temporary insanity on his part when he chose rat over me. But to think about it, this temporary insanity has been for a couple of months already. And somehow, I realised that I have to snap out of this craziness and face reality soon. When better to do it than now right?
For nearly three months, the only person I go out with is him. It's amazing how I can meet him 3-4 days a week and not get bored of it. And not to mention that we pretty much do the same thing everytime we meet. It's just lunch, shopping, dinner, movie then have some drinks before heading home. It's just like a routine.. None of us expected anything because we started going out as normal friends. But as time goes by, I find myself falling for this silly guy whom would comply to whatever that I ask of him. The relationship have been nothing but simple. Be it just hanging out at his place playing the piano, we just enjoy it all. We were so used to each other's presence that we felt uneasy after not meeting up for only 3 days. I felt like such a pampered little princess when I'm with him because he takes such care of me. There wasn't anything we couldn't talk to each other about. It's just like a fantasy lah.
Like I said, it's just like fantasy and fantasy means it's unreal. Somehow the reason why things ended was pretty much cuz of the appearance of rat. But, our last date was also the best date we had.
I was supposed to go over to his place after tutoring but I decided to meet him at night instead. We met up at the night safari as agreed and went in. As usual, he paid for the entrance fee while I get him something in return. I got Ben and Jerry's before heading in and in the midst of walking in, he suddenly stopped and fed me. It was a feeling I couldn't describe. Just, pure happiness I guess. Spent the night over at the night safari before we headed back to his place with the intention of using the piano. He fell asleep instead and we just spent the night in his room. Not gonna go into detail but lets just say this much valued relationship ended with a kiss.

Anyway, here's some pretty nice and emo songs I wanna share. Hee. Just some songs that remind me of him.. :(

Dear A,
I miss you. And I miss the times we spent together. Although they weren't anything special, but I still love every minute of it. Pure simple dating, and not to mention being pampered by you. Just so you know, you're the first person I think of whenever I'm down. Part of me still wished that you'll be there to hug me when I cry, and tell me it's alright because I have you. But time and again, you disappoint me.
Do you know? That I had mixed feelings that night when you hugged me while I cried?
I felt so safe, yet I'm afraid. I was so afraid that if you were to choose rat over me, I would fall because I lost my support.
You made me so dependent on you that even up till now, I'm still trying to get used to being alone. But, thank you for making me stronger though.
Well, darling, I hope that one day, you'll look back and regret that you chose rat over me. :)

Love, Qing.

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